sometimes you think things would be better if it never was but you find you can't go back in time.
sometimes you want to go back to being who you were before and living the life you had before, but you find you can't reverse events, unscar yourself and go on like before.
sometimes you wonder why your lifelong goal to be independent never succeeds, and you wonder if you have it in you to be like that.
sometimes you wonder if all this effort will really help in the end.
sometimes you wonder if you're in this alone when you're not supposed to be.
sometimes you cry, and wonder if anyone else ever feels this shit.
you can't be happy when you have it, you can't live without it. what is it with humans?
a star fell from the sky;
4:39 PM
Monday, May 26, 2008
one life, today, you're irresistible
get up, get out, stay wonderful
all this time is waiting for you
don't stop, don't change, stay beautiful
don't stop, don't change, stay beautiful
one life, today, is undeniable
get up, get out, stay wonderful
all this time is waiting for you
all this time is waiting for you
a star fell from the sky;
12:41 PM
Sunday, May 25, 2008
shiyun and i went to check out the travel agencies at people's park this week. we actually spent more than half the time at dorothy perkins nearby. i got three tops and a hole in my wallet. haha. we've more or less decided on our trip! just have to fix the date and go down to e agencies again :) finally i get to buy my own dutyfree alcohol :):)
had an enjoyable, lazy afternoon with our dearest joanne and jov and an in house screening of ps i love you. the show definitely does not come under romantic comedy man. theres nothing funny at all. i thought it was rather sad actually. abit like the extremely sad marian keyes book i read e other time. but i enjoyed the girls' company as always :)
ytd i spent the day at the expo with lauren and her cousin mirjam. we were there for the hillsong united concert but we were super early so we went to the robinson's sale at the hall nxt door for awhile. both of them are not really shoppers so i did most of e shopping while they stood ard. kinda paiseh but i cldnt resist! i did get some stuff in e end. some really pretty stuff! getting the tickets for the concert was full of drama too. we didnt manage to get tickets at first coz they were sold out. but mirjam found someone to buy e tickets from so we went there. but e person didnt turn up even when it was really really late. so mirjam started asking people at the door if they had extra tickets. and we actually managed to get another four tickets! so us and mirjam's friends managed to get in :) the concert was really good. my first time going for a concert at the expo. but it was really really good. alot of jumping and screaming and singing. you know for once, its okay to jump and sing and scream really loudly in public. it felt really exhilarating. hahahaha. and we came out with our eardrums intact! going home was terrible though. there were millions of people at the concert so of course the millions moved onto the trains and all. and there was absolutely no place to buy food and we were starving! even 7-11 refused to let us in coz they said they were closing. terrible people. haiz.
and we saw the most obscene advertisement ever in the mrt. seriously guys, keep ur eyes open on the mrt. theres this advertisement which looks really tame at first glance but look more carefully and see what they're advertising! its totally crude man. cant believe they allow such adverts on e mrt. there are little kids around!
and today was my brother's First Holy Communion. haha it was really cool coz now its like my little brother is all grown up! wowee. my cheeksie, all grown up! oooohhh. we took some nice pics which i'll post when they're up.
enjoy e rest of e weekend guys! have a good week ahead :) live well!
a star fell from the sky;
2:13 PM
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
sunday was exciting. met charm and steven for lunch at adam road food centre. its rather inaccessible by public transport. haha. but we [or rather, i] found our way there. the food there was not bad too. too many choices and a limited appetite. ohwell. we still had room for dessert though :) mudpie at island creamery was totally heaven. and we tried e tiger sorbet which really does taste like tiger beer but less bitter. and we watched speed racer! its better than i expected man. haha. at least we didnt come out with half of our intelligence left, which wld prob have happened if we watched drillbit taylor ;) but honestly its not a bad show. not exactly predictable so its quite exciting sometimes. ask me if u want spoilers! hahaha.
and now i have a new no. 1 pal. she's pink and furry and has a heart stamped on her foot ;) and she has two hearts! haha really she does. no clothes though, because i really dont think bears shld be dressed like humans. but shes still gorgeous :) and she went on e singapore flyer with us ytd! haha. e flyer is quite boring after awhile. coz it moves really really slowly and most of what u see ard is hdb flats and mud and construction sites. maybe e view will be better in a few years when theres less construction sites ard. haha but e good thing is theres a popeye's there! yum :)
this day is going down in history
a star fell from the sky;
1:15 PM
Friday, May 16, 2008
oh and i passed my ftt! yayyee :) tues was nice. cleared my ftt and finally went shopping with our dearest shiyun. if only all driving tests are theory tests. den i think i can get my license damn fast. oh well. can book my practical test soon :) but scared la. my driving is not exactly........the best. but im improving! haha. maybe coz i got a diff instructor for once. time to work on my driving man. shopping was good. saw alot of nice stuff man. but hmm money is limited as always. why doesnt money grow on trees? HAHAHAHA i wish.
oh and the adorable 21 month old who's mine, his name is max. but im not going to see him this week! damn sad la. nvm even if we're miles apart my heart is always with him ;) he is really the cutest thing la.
we have a new guy at work. haha. he's hilarious too, and really nice. his girlfriend is one lucky girl la. he says e mushiest things. and shes not even there to hear it la! thanks lor. makes my goosebumps stand up. hahaha. and he has e most curly hair ever. its even more curly than max's! but it suits him. but sorry girls, hes way taken. and this week was our inhouse bartender's last week. will miss him and his constant bickering with shanker. so now shanker is our new inhouse bartender :) why do bartenders always have to be guys? who says girls cannot lift the beer barrels?! and pizzeria has been expanding. we have new tables now! and more to come. haha. but nope, no new fans. lol.
okay thats it for now. update later! live well :)
a star fell from the sky;
11:29 AM
Monday, May 12, 2008
Our Lives
-The Calling
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the year's we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best of our lives
We can't go wrong
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside
Is it love tonight?
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah well can we get it right?
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the year's we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
These are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best of our lives
a star fell from the sky;
2:51 PM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
today was pretty good. church in e morning was crowded. like way crowded. coz the archbishop was here for mass so e church was like bursting, literally. one more person try to squeeze in and we're all gonna overflow outside alr. all the more exciting i guess. haha coz at twelve they had this fiesta where its like free food and entertainment all around. by e time lauren and i went down most of e free food was gone but we still had e most amazing éclairs ever and enough food to stuff ourselves. haha. there was still alot of people at the fiesta and everyone was pretty good sport participating, including our parish priests who actually performed for the audience. people [or rather kids] actually participated in e games so at least it didnt turn out like those agonizing funfairs where u really really really pity the mc. no fancy uncle ringo rides and all, just food and drinks and ice cream. but i still really enjoyed e atmosphere :) nice to see everyone let their hair down for abit. it is, after all, pentecost :)
ftt on tues. wish me luck guys, im gonna need it! haha. i gotta put more effort into driving man. at e rate im going i'll prob get my license after i turn 60 la. from now on im going to be your number one safe driver. no more reckless turns and swerving between lanes and doing anything without doing the all important MSB first. thats MIRROR, SIGNAL, and BLINDSPOT, for the uninitiated. nxt time u wanna look for me on e road, look to your left! yupp, the ssdc car crawling on the left lane. wave to me! i'll do an MSB and wave back =p
cheers to a good week ahead, and to a new and improved ming! lol.
a star fell from the sky;
5:21 PM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
ohwell. life goes on.
work today :):):)
anyone up for some bacardi and coke? haha.
a star fell from the sky;
10:48 AM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
my grandad's funeral was slightly different. less people, for one. not as many cousins and we didnt really camp there coz its still sch time. my bro had much less kakis to run havoc with. more guilt, because we didnt make an effort to go down to see him more often when he was still ard, more shock, because he left so suddenly. oh well. im just glad its over. no more funerals in the near future okay?
oh and i took a motorbike a second time. it was less scary, coz the driver is a safer one :) and there was this really really super duper adorable caucasian toddler at pizzeria the other day. he was so cute i tell you. i gave him my heart there and then ;) he had the most fantastic curly hair and the most heavenly blue eyes. honestly! if you want to know what angels look like, it must be like him. and he was the most friendly boy ever. haha. he even came to give me a hug :):):):) ask me if u want to know his other antics/join me in his fan club. its way too many to type out :)
thanks for coming last night. meant the world to me.
next time if u guys are down, when its e time of e month, when u have sth on your mind, or in short anytime that you feel like you're not e normal happy person you are, i have the solution. really! haha. take yourself to macritchie for a walk. does wonders for your soul :) and if you still feel down, try running back. lol. the most foolproof plan to get your moods up again ever. the pain in your legs will distract you from pain anywhere else ;) and u get nicer legs too! win-win situation eh. hahahaha. but dont get lost la. that doesnt help things much.
okay, driving time. update again soon :)
a star fell from the sky;
11:44 AM